Faith

The Solitude of Grief

The Solitude of Grief

White hot rage coursing through my veins at the smallest provocation. Yes, I can release venom with this same mouth that forms platitudes. And it makes my very insides hurt. Hot tears stream down cheeks as I curl up in bed clutching my aching stomach. […]

Come.

Come.

Expectation. Anticipation. A flutter of heart beating. Advent. It means coming. And our expectant breath exhales: “Come, Lord Jesus, come.” In this broken, fallen world, we cry out: come. Encountering pain, brokenness, sickness and death, we sob: come. In all our empty places, waiting to […]

Stand By Me

Stand By Me

I remember the first time she called my attention to the passage. She told me to read it through, and I did. Exodus 17: 8-13 At Rephidim, the Amalekites came and fought against the Israelites. So Moses said to Joshua, “choose some men and go […]

By This Everyone Will Know

By This Everyone Will Know

She followed that teenager and that sweet mama in her thirties right down into the water, without batting an eye. She looked so little standing next to them in the water…but her head was held erect. She was doing what she’d been born to do. […]

When The Only Thing Missing on Mother’s Day Is Your Mother

When The Only Thing Missing on Mother’s Day Is Your Mother

It’s the end of Mother’s Day, and I’m clean wore out. Finally…finally the house is quiet. The frogs sounding outside my window are the only noise¬†except for the settling sounds of this old house. The tension is leaving me slowly, so slowly. I’ve yearned all […]

hope.  Advent 2015 Week One

hope. Advent 2015 Week One

Simplicity. In a world that clamors noisily as the holidays approach, we are a people craving quiet and simple joys. We desire a way to pause sweet moments and soak it all in…to fast forward through the endless to-dos…the shopping and baking and wrapping. At […]

seasons.

seasons.

“I never celebrated Thanksgiving before.” It was a conversation stopper for sure. We uneasily glanced at one another around the table. The eyes of our biological children dimmed with this truth. My husband shook his head sadly while I grappled with my surprise…and wondered why […]

Dear Teacher

Dear Teacher

Dear Teacher, I was sitting there in my vehicle, impatiently drumming my fingers on my steering wheel, waiting for the pilot car that. just. wouldn’t. come. I decided to check my email, knowing before I did that there would be an email from you. And […]

Struggling with Surrender

Struggling with Surrender

Trust. Surrender. Handing it all over… and not taking it back. This. This is the crux of my biggest struggle in my Christian walk. I have control issues. I have timing issues. (In other words…I am a big contributor to our “instant gratification” society.) But […]

beauty.

beauty.

Sometimes it’s hard to soak the beauty all in…how it catches in my throat just like that big ol’ lump because, yes, I’m a cry baby. And sometimes life just does that. Makes you cry. I cry for the sad…and the hopeless…the helpless and the […]